Sentimental Thoughts First

Assalamualaikum Hanafiah? How’s life? How is she?
How is ur best friend? Well, it seems like life didn’t turn out the way we wanted eh? It seems dat she’ll always look at u as a friend, even more saddening; a stranger, and dats just sad, really. But life is like love, it’s unpredictable, and the flower of love blooms even under the most unfulfilled condition at uncertain temperatures at an unknown location where u slightest expected it.

Love is hard, yet it’s fragile, and its only normal to love when people are being nice to u, and when they stopped (being nice), life is hard again. And u know what they said about life; dat life goes on. So, sabar la eh ;-)

Change, is hard, yet it can be as easy and quick as a bold, just make sure that it starts from deep within urself. Looking back at myself, I realized that her words are very true indeed. This wake up call, is very hard at first, it’s even harder when the one u trusted to deliver the words said it in a harsh way, and no matter how hard u beg her to reconsider and give dis another chance which she didn’t give makes it harder, and fortunately the well is dried up now, and hei, look, I’m starting to write again.

Yeah, what she said, keeps on repeating in my head, and it never stops, and I never know when it will. And muttering like ‘astaga’ or ‘tolong lah jangan’ everytime u’re awake seems like an idiot, but moving ur hands with mouth mumbling sumthing while driving with ur mum sitting next to is by far the worst la kan, haha.

Well, hanafiah, I can hope u can change better, I know u will. I just know u will, maybe it’ll require sometime, maybe it’ll take forever, or perhaps it could take up as little time one could expect because u just didn’t realize that u had changed, or whatever it is, sooner or later, today or sumday, maybe slowly but surely, u will change, Hanafiah.

U’ve come a long great way to change, to improve urself, and I cudnt see why u shud stop doing so, and perhaps maybe someday u’ll become a great friend to most of us, who is true to himself, without being the slightest hypocrite.

And what’s most important, like someone wud’ve said, jangan berputus asa dengan rahmat tuhan, berusaha, dan bertawakal, semoga setiap apa yg kita lakukan akan diberkatiNya, amin. Well, Hanafiah, I wish u success in life, in whatever u’ll do, and hopefully u can improve ur social skills and fulfill ur ambition to teach like ur parents had, like u always had ;-)

written on: 27 January 2010