Thursday, February 16, 2012

Five Minutes Duration of Writing (Zizan Razak, Kaka - Bawaku Pergi)

Assalamualaikum kids? How's life? Haha, yeah...I know I have other better, much important  things to do now, but still, I cant help but to type in few words, no worries, Im gonna make it quick, I have an assignment, a coursework to submit tomorrow.

I don't really have anything to say, but just like the feeling of striking the keyboard. I dont't know at what point in life writing is becoming some sort of passion, maybe I feel it the same way when I was running, even I may not feel the breeze against my tanned face, however I just feel like I am doing something important by typing in my thoughts, it like I am progressing, moving forward as I did in running (unless you ran backward that is).

Frankly speaking, I don't have any ideas about anything to say. What's on my mind now is mostly friends in Malaysia, and I felt like running as well, no, not running from reality literally. Okay, let's find a topic.

Hmm, okay, gotcha! Ayah ingin cerita tentang proses pentarbiyyahan, mungkin sedikit konservatif, dan radikal dari beberapa sudut, tapi agama merupakan salah satu fitrah manusia, sesuatu yang memang ada pada zahirnya, kerana manusia itu lemah, dan hanya dengan kebergantungan mereka kepada yang Maha Esa bisa menjadikan mereka gagah, merentasi lautan, mendaki gunung, dan teruskan mencabar diri; supaya mereka lebih sedar bahawa, setiap pencapaian, setiap kejayaan, setiap halangan yang berjaya kita tempuhi dapat diatasi hanya dengan bersandarkan kepada Ilahi.

Ayah tidak pandai sama sekali untuk memberikan suatu didikan agama yang meruncing, tapi jangan risau, kerana Islam itu mencakupi, menyentuh setiap aspek kehidupan kita; dan bersama akan kita kupasnya satu persatu, kerana ayah sendiri masih jahil, dan serba kekurangan Astagfirullah al-azim.

I will tell you guys more later, for now I have a coursework to submit; kepala pening. My friend had helped me alot. And that's why kids, jangan sombong, kerana orang yang sombong secara automatiknya adalah bodoh, mereka tidak dapat berkongsi ilmu dengan sahabat-sahabat yang lain. Study rerajin, love you guys, like I always had :-)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Tempat Jatuh Lagi Dikenang, Inikan Pula Tanah Air

Assalamualaikum kids, hows life? I always wondered what it feels like to be independent. I realized few things today, that is, like for example one of them, as much as I want to be here, I too realize that this is just not my place, no matter how hard I tried, but things are not gonna be the same. and as much i tried cooking curry, or put in lots of tomato sauce, in doesnt change the fact I am asian who prefers reallly hot and spicy stuff.

But most important of all, lets not forget that I really miss my friends and family in Kuala Lumpur. I have come to a conclusion, that is, that few things that made a certain  a place great is not by the tourist attraction destination it could offer or the culture, or the food, or the beauty of the vicinity, for such thing can only accommodate or fulfill such urges, to certain extent we will become bored eventually, BUT if we were in our rightful place, where the sense of belonging was no longer an alienated feeling, and above it all, having to see the familiar faces that lights up our static emotion everyday definitely one of God's greatest gift one could ask for.

In Scotland today, they are pretty much striving and anticipating, trying to secure their own independence. But the opposition comes from lots of parties and people, the society being to follow the leadership of England for so long had made me wonder what it feels like to witness an independence, to be able to witness something that will be mark down in the history of men, just like Malaysia which had gained their independence as early in 1957

People are living hardships today; sustainability, things that could endanger the ecosystems appears, and people, the society starts to paranoid, afraid of their dark shadows that as much they realize its existence, but continues to take it for granted, until the effect had become so severe that is beyond the comprehension of our limited mental faculties; however in resolving such issue, one can only start small, from its origin, from the main source; themselves.

I don't really know where I am leading on this issue, or what ever the issue is all about, or how things are starting to make abrupt introductions in the catastrophic world, but nevertheless, there's a solution for very problem; it always has. But, there's a saying that we can show a horse to a river, but wen can never force it to drink. And, calling off good decisions are the few aspects we lack, even as we realized the truth, the pros and cons of every options; but we still opt for the worse, or worst choices, because we are scared, intimidated, we are afraid that things are no longer the same, we prefer to be in the comfortable zone when we know, when we realize that one can always improve, step their game up and bringing it to the next unimaginable level by continue to challenge, by continue fighting, for what is rightfully theirs.

Who said that the road to independence will be easy? Who said that it's gonna a smooth ride to winning? and sustaining, managing your own country is not difficult and challenging? But I can say, nothing beats the sweet victory, the feeling of knowing that you own your country, that you are doing the best for your home, for your beloved land, beloved countrymen, and for all these things you had in mind, if you were to make them a priority, a must, a stressing factor in every fight, in every obstacles that you came across, you my friend, with God's grace, will come out triumphant.

I see people in doubt, and i tried assure them with words, as empty as it could, but with clear, honest words, so that they realize the feeling that I felt. I did not fight for independence, but my parents did, my grandparents did, and I believed they had sacrificed soo much for what we have today, for a greater, brighter future generation, thus I can see a clear difference between the fight for independence between what Malaysia had and what Scotland is trying to achieve.

 Jika ingin terbang bebas seperti burung, belajarlah mengibas sayap walaupun pada 
awalnya takut untuk jatuh

I will always love you Malaysia, for what ever the things that I will do is for the sake of your best interest, for a brighter future for my children, for a future that is not too late, for a future that I can shape with my own barehands, for a future that is not so far away, for all these things, like I always had.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Seratus Kebahagian dan Peristiwa, serta Infiniti Penzahiran Rasa

Assalamualaikum kids? MasyaAllah, how's life? Yeah, I realized that it's my 100th post, yey! Haha, naah, saja je excited. I dont really know what to say tho, just let my muscular (ek eleh) hands, stroke the dark, antic keyboard as gentle as possible, and trying to look  as if im typing my dissertation or doing important things whatsoever. Nevertheless, I really dont know what to say tho, Im kinda speechless....literally.

Today, I woke up, feeling cold (like always) and almost late to class (like always again). So as I went out, I saw hot chicks! Naah, the lonely cold win of february strikes in, with a thick mist, surrounding the vicinity, and Glasgow city was blurry for almost within like 100 meters probably. I crossed the slippery road, in a much fast stead manner, hoping that I will make it to the class. And, unfortunately, it had already started though, but I still make my way to my seat and listen attentively...for 10 minutes, haha, naah.

Pegi kelas ikut jalan ni; sempat amik gamba?Padan la lambat!

After that, I went for a jogging in the park nearby, somewhere below the High Street, near the River Clyde, it's called Glasgow Green. There's a saying, that the grass always look greener on the other side of the fence, and it did.

Ayah teruskan melangkah, dalam kepekatan kabus yang menyelubungi, penglihatan bertambah kabur, tetapi ironiknya, keindahan alam itu masih terasa. Adakalanya, apabila sesuatu itu lekat di hati, maka kecantikan itu akan sentiasa terserlah walaupun pada zahirnya tidak lagi kelihatan; mungkin tidak di mata orang lain, tetapi di dalam hati kita, hanya tuhan sahaja yang mengetahuinya.

Hidup, tidak ubah seperti suatu perjalanan, suatu persinggahan, dan sepanjang perjalanan ini kita akan melampaui pelbagai kesukaran, dan kepayahan. Tiada siapa yang mengatakan hidup ini akan mudah. Maka apa yang boleh kita hanya lakukan hanyalah terus melangkah, ke hadapan, walau betapa perlahan, betapa kecil kita melangkah.

Amik gamba lagi time nak pegi kelas, laagi la lambat!!

Hidup ayah, tidak ubah seperti jalan yang diselubungi kabus ini; ayah tidak nampak apa yang berada di hadapan, hanya mampu terus melangkah, dengan harapan akan menemui destinasi yang diinginkan. Ayah keliru, kaku, terkesima dengan jalan-jalan, kebarangkalian, kemampuan dan kelebihan serta kekurangan diri. Apa yang ingin ayah lakukan selepas ini? Ke mana hala tuju kehidupan? Adakah ayah akan pilih suatu jalan itu kerana jalan itu mudah? atau hanya itu sahaja jalan yang ada? Persoalan-persoalan ini timbul satu persatu.

Ayah ada keinginan untuk menjadi jurutera
Ayah minat juga project management
Ayah minat juga planning.


Allah jua sebaik-baik jurutera,
Allah jua sebaik-baik project manager,
dan Allah jua sebaik-baik perancang

Dan hidup ayah, dan hidup kamu, adalah sesuatu yang telah dirancang, dan Dia telah mengambil kira pelbagai faktor, pelbagai kemungkinan dan kebarangkalian, setiap input yang hambaNya berikan. Sesungguhnya, kesudahan yang baik itu, adalah bagi orang-orang yang beriman.

Hari ni, I went to see my lecturer, Prof. Joe Clarke, because I failed his paper in last semester's exam. And he gave me sum reassuring words, and advices, saying he will try his best not to fail me, and such.
"Professor, is there any way you can give me 2 marks more for my paper?"
"We have to discuss this with your course coordinator..."
"Okay, noted Prof. Ill keep in touch"
"Hey, can you do me a favour?"
"Cheer up kid. You're not failing this subject, don't worry. Don't let failure or success determine your happiness. Maybe under certain circumstances you failed, but maybe next time you wont. Don't let it be in your way from feeling happy. Cheer up!"
"Thanks Prof."

Recently, pada hari sabtu lepas, kawan baik ayah, pakcik Sufian korang, telah bertunang dengan makcik Sarina. Ingat tak kita ada pegi rumah diorang aritu? (banyak sangat berangan ni!).

 mengimbau kembali zaman kanak-kanak riang :-)))

 nasib baik ayah takda kat sana, kalau tak habis dah kena tekel semua bridesmaids
(haha, bajet sangat :-p)

Sufian bin Roslan, Sarina binti Saleh, semoga setapak lebih mendekati gerbang perkahwinan, setapak lebih dekat menyempurnakan separuh dari agama diri, setapak lebih dekat menuju kebahagian; sentiasalah bersama di kala sukar dan senang, selagi terdaya akan aku hulurkan bantuan, insyaAllah. Thanks for everything.

And seeing one of my best friends getting engaged, one step closer to getting married made me think about few things too, about myself definitely. But I'll save that for later. I have other important things to do now. I have sacrificed so many things to come here and pursue my knowledge. And if I were to waste this opportunity, how can I ever face him again? How can I ever face your grandma kan? So, keep your priorities straight Hanafiah!!! *tidak semena-mena berlari*

Oh, recently I was elected to be one of the AJKs in the Glasgow Malaysian Community. More responsibility, more opportunities to improve myself, more work too...I guess? I...can't be thankful enough tho. Ingat, anak panah yang tidak meninggalkan busur tidak akan mengenai sasarannya.

Masa depan yang belum pasti, sama seperti bumi yang diselubungi kabus; hanya dengan menjejakinya sahaja dapat kita pastikan sejauh mana kebenaran hakikat yang kita dambakan
(Gambar kredit pakcik Hazwan korang, heh)

Terima kasih banyak-banyak tidak terhingga. Jazakallah khayran. Ayah sayang korang sentiasa, like I always had :-)