Friday, July 15, 2011

There are Different Definitions in Quitting

Salam kids, how's life? Me, well, im kinda sleepy, and the most important thing that i want to jot down today is that I have sent my letter of resignation. Yeah, im quitting from the company. No, it's not that I cant handle the pressure (or maybe i am? haha) but i can see that there is no career development from staying in the company, and I've grown accustomed to the working environment, so i think its best to get myself uncomfortable again, create a sense of urgency is what my fellow insepmates wud've said, haha. I have another interview tomorrow, and frankly speaking, i am not expecting much, only make good with this lil' moments before i enter into the 'battlefield' (kata je medan perang, but its more of a high school's common hall) which is nostalgically cool, and brings back memories of my schooldays, free of worries and how i longed to relive all the precious moments back then,and of course I wudve definitely made few changes that I to I wud. but, regrets is part of life, and sum people bring along the regrets as they move forward, they may be advancing thru, making small, decent paces in life, but their feet remain shackled with the past and guilt, perhaps, i too can be categorized in those few unlucky people. But, no matter how far you go into the future, no matter how far you have progress, it doesnt hurt to just for once in a while, embrace your nostalgic side, and look back at how much you've achieved, how further you've come.

Frankly speaking, this resignation had definitely made me think, about lotsa things, about my ambitions, about the things i wanna do in life, the things i wanna grasp as the carbon dioxide breathes out of my tiny, frangible lung, and I pray that I, you and me, we all, gonna live life to the fullest, and remember too to live in the moment.

I have things to do, now, better things dat is. And, i have come this far in life by the help of soooo many people, and for that, for all those good experiences, thank you very much. Enough lesson on life, let's play kids. If i kicked a ball directly onto your face, strictly remember it was unintentional and accidental, and I will always love you like I always had :-)

Sunday, July 10, 2011

If Love is Mathematics, I Pray dat I wont Fail Again

Assalamualaikum kids, how’s life? Haaa…ive been coming home lately, I hope by the time u guys read dis my life wudve been very stable that I can spend most of my time after 5 with you guys at home. I know dat ive been busy lately but as I take my usual drive home in the pitch dark surroundings, only to be enlighten by the dim neon light of my fading car headlamps had definitely made me reflects on lotsa things in life; the past especially, since the forward motion of the car as I step on the worn out accelerators slowly reaching 100km/h on the fastest lane as if I’ve been trying really hard to change, to leave all these unwanted memories, all these unwanted feelings, and my burning desire to change continues to deplete tremendously just like the petrol in the fuel container of the car; needed to be refueled, need to be reminded often, as always. 

Kids, I don’t know why, if you read most of my posts are usually about love, and dis is one of those subjects I often bring up, but as much I know it would bore and without a doubt making you guys realize that Im just a hopeless romantic, but let me say dis; it’s a feeling that cant be helped, not yet, not until the right moment strikes in, kay? You know, back then in school, girls and love are the most alienated topic I cudve discuss with my fellow friends, but as I grow up with the sudden urge of hormones and passion dat kicks in, it seems that the topics on games and entertainment had been superseded and obsolete, to certain extent dat is. Your mum is now my entertainment, and finding and waiting for her to come in my life will be one of the most anticipating, rewarding and meaningful thing i cud expect in my life rite now; but ive gotta admit, as my patience starts to run out, ill keep on reminding myself the time will come; the finishing line will be there, and it’s a matter of time, so what I can do right now I keep my heads up, keep on looking forward to the day I will actually meet her and in the meantime I’ll prepare and try to become a better person, for her, for myself, and for you guys :-)

Kids, ada kalanya Tuhan titipkan rasa kasih dan sayang dalam jiwa hanya untuk menyedari si dia tidak juga berperasaan demikian agar kita tidak lupa dalam keghairahan kita mengejar cinta hambaNya, cinta Dia lah yang harus kita kejar sedaya upaya.

I love you guys, like I always had.