Saturday, January 29, 2011

Blunt Like James Blunt, Wait....Yeah, Sure

Assalamulaikum kids? How's life? Wll, today is the day that I have nothing to talk about, nothing important whatsoever, nevertheless Ill try to say some things, good things to you guys, well...what? Why bother u asked? I just feel like stroking each letter on this antique, vintage laptop, and now, please, let the keyboard do the talking :-)

Today is kinda gloomy cause its raining meow and woofy outside, ever since morning, and im stuck here in the room, only accompanied by the loud songs of Sam Tsui's cover of 'Just A Dream'. Well, you could try to google it if you have time.

I am actually so blunt today, i cant even express my feelings the way I used to, most of the time I just felt like keeping quiet, and listen to the heavy noise of the rain striking down the rusty roof, and watching every single bit of the water pouring from the drain. Life seems to be slow now, and deep down I appreciate for having the chance to laid back. The darkness of human mind, seems to be inactive now and all the words seem to be improperly placed. Well, its not a bright side, but I still wish to convey it to you guys.

To anyone that came (and I pray you'll stay) thank you, thanks a bunch for entering my life, I...I cant thank enough. I will always love you guys, and you kids too definitely, like I always had.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

It Must've Been Love...But It's Over Now

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. kids. Well. Im speechless tonight. I don’t even know why, but there are time, wait..lotsa times I just wanna sit quietly and observe. But I realize, to become a great father, uve gotta speak up, be frank, and love unconditionally. There are lotsa rules, but, the rules also apply differently to different children, but love is not a game, it has consequences, and the outcome of every actions you put onto you guys will definitely gonna affect your future, and your most valuable asset is not sumthing worth jeopardizing.

♫♪ It must've been love....but its over now, It must've been good...but I lost it somehow..♪♫

So, by the moment Im writing this I was listening to this song, by an artist called Roxette and the song’s name is ‘It Must’ve Been Love’ so, well, im the kind of person that not only listen to the rhythm but also the lyrics, and like a fragile, wondering mind ive always been, this song got me thinking more..and more, about love. I know, all my posts had always been about love, its love this, or love that, yeah we all got the point that love is very important, and when you sincerely love someone, from the depths of your heart, it’ll show, without any act, and you don’t need fancy gifts or beautiful roses as a sign of your deep love.  

Unlike sum of my friends, I never had the chance to witness a simple affection between ur parents like ur aunty suhaila had. Its simple, but…you know there’s sumthing there, its not plastic, fake and not superficial. There’s an unknown, unseen bond, a mysterious force that binds all these things together, and sumhow everything miraculously falls appropriately into its place, where everything belongs casually, like fate; and there is no reasonable, logical explanation to all these things.

Before I end my writing I wanna say thanks for all the wishes.
Em, to my beloved friends kalau aku ada salah dan silap, maafkanlah kerana sesungguhnya yang buruk itu datang dari kelemahan aku sendiri, dan yang baik itu datangnya dari Allah s.w.t., dan kalau ada futsal, kenduri kawen ke, tahlil ke, ajak la, aku akan cuba datang, kerana kalau korang lari, aku akan lari jua, insyaAllah :-)

Sesunguhnya sesudah kesukaran ada kesenangan

I also wud like to thank ur uncle kaia, uncle apis, uncle pian, uncle adam, uncle zhafril, uncle ali for the advise and guidance, for looking out after me, thanks a lot.

It may seem cold but I can feel the warmth of your heart, thank you friends, I love you guys ,and you guys too, like I always had :-)

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Rezeki Datang Sekali Sekala, Syukur Kena Selalu

Assalamualaikum Hanafiah? How’s life? Haha, cool eh, you’re getting older, wiser, and you’ve began to embrace and appreciate life from lotsa aspects. Yeah, it’s important too that as we get older that we should not forget to cherish the child in ourselves. Still unemployed eh? Nevermind, good things will come, good things will come, insyaAllah.

Hmm, I think its been quite sumtime that ive always told about the miseries that ive been thru, well I guess its time to turn over a new leaf and let bygones be bygones. Plus I aint sum emo kid, so enuf with those heart throbbing, mind blowing posts (haha, perasan sejenak). Neway kids, Im 24 now, its so freaking cool cos…well, I just think its great for a person to grow old and die, mengucapkan 2 kalimah syahadah in the arms of their beloved, and letting their offspring, their kids to do the last task, the last order a parent would’ve wanted from their beloved children, which is to bathe them properly, respectfully, and most important to be really careful as their parents, like their hearts too, even can be seen from the naked eye, the most fragile thing, thus handle it with care as they the most valuable thing in the world. 

Frankly speaking, I was never a good child. There are times I let my emotions to sway my sanity, and let anger take control, often I let ur grandma down, often I took ur grandpa for granted, no matter how many negativity I had done, or how many mistakes, I just pray that I will never do hat again, and if I will, I pray to be given the chance to beg for forgiveness. I realize, there are lots of things I need to improve, but starting aint easy, but I would like to give it my best shot.

I’ve few things that im planning, and suddenly I felt there’re just too many routes for me to run, the ocean is so big and the wind is blowing in so many directions, the sky is so vast that I can fly towards any direction too; and I hope no matter which path I take, wherever my leg is taking me, or which direction im going, I pray that I’ll end up in some good, blessed place surrounded with great people, great friends, and respectable rivals.

Im glad I took this training, I learned lotsa new things, I learn to troubleshoot and create few things, I began to appreciate knowledge more, and im surrounded by people who are thirst for knowledge, surrounded by people with the same great desire as mine; which is to improve themselves and find a stepping stone into the career they wanted. It’s not easy, we may not be lucky enuf to be employed, but to be united in such fateful event, I cant be more thankful :-)

Rezeki datang sekali sekala, tapi syukur kena selalu. 

Hanafiah, selamat harijadi, semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki selalu. It’s time we buckle up, shift the gear, speed up, run like the wind, and face new challenges in life! Kalau kau lari, aku lari jua. I love you like I always had.

Monday, January 3, 2011

I Will Always Love You

Assalamualaikum w.b.t Hanafiah? How's life again? haha, it seems ur frens are getting bz, and yeah its undeniably u wud feel lonely at times as they make their preparations as they proceed with their life, its perplexing, ironic that u wished u cud be part of it, help them making plans, yet wanting to make ur own plans and at the same time wishing all these good times we're having will never end; but that's how life work, God had set it to run on its own mechanism, and no one will ever be able to break the system He had created; thus be thankful, and be prepared to face the never forgetful death. 

2010 was the most dramatic year I've ever had in my life. I lost love, found it, and lost it again, I finally met my first crush after 9 years but the feelings are no longer there, I went to practical, getting the first perspective on how working situation would feels like, I made friends, lotsa friends, I finally able to meet the girl whom I had laid out my life plan with her on a dinner only to find her now dating my classmate, I built lotsa hope and plans and see em getting crushed; oh, did I mention I graduated? Yeah, it was awesome, to certain extent that is, I played football, i do lotsa things to cope up with stress, and make myself busy with trivial things like there was this one week I played futsal from monday until friday, and football on the saturday, there's also this one time I played futsal at and followed by a 10km run the following morning and finished with football in the evening.And I cud never find any significant reasons why i did all these, but I just know that it's a challenge, it's sumthing I must overcome, sumthing that I must do to improve. 

As you progress in life, there are lotsa people who will throw things to you, and you will make friends with em, and the experiences you had with em will help you differentiate the good qualities they had. 2010 is the year where I was desperate for love, money, knowledge, desperate to improve myself. I know, since when did improving myself start to be a reaallly bothering aspect in my life. Well, everyone has their moment to do this 360..wait, maybe 180 degrees turnaround? and mine started like after SPM, but nowadays the it gets more and more desperate, but I dont know at what part, or how can i measure the level of improvement for me to be fully satisfied? is all about balance, my situation, I need to be more balanced. You see, people who are not satisfied with what they have is the kind of people that is not being thankful for what they have in life, and God despises those people. Kids, never, ever fall into that category, becos such people they dont know to count their blessings and never be thankful in life. But at the same time, we should never just rest, and take things slowly, spacing out, chilling when we should strive. Thus this is where the difference between great men and ordinary people. Strive as hard as you can, do the best in all the things you could put ur effort on, whether sports, studying, wooing girls, or praying; perform as best as you could, and never forget to do it sincerely, from the bottom of your heart. And pray your passion will last, and the result, the outcome of your every ounce of energy you worked out will not led to wastage, and left in vain. 

 I love you guys, and the beginning of this new year marks another one step closer for us to meet. Right now, i just wanna express my love, tho I just cant seem to find the right person yet, so I dont think its pointless, or stupid to convey it to you guys, my beloved offsprings. I pray for us to become great person, and contribute something, maybe if we cant contribute anything to humanity and mankind, its sufficient enough we contribute it to our beloved family and friends, and able to perform our task and khalifas as our fragile life still breathes. I love you like I always had.

Sesungguhnya kesudahan yang baik adalah bagi orang-orang yang beriman :-)