Sunday, April 11, 2010

Defy It Baby !!

Assalamualaikum Hanafiah? How’s life? Haha, its been quite sumtime eh since I last write sumthing, so today I continued, but make it quick dude, the game’s about to start in like few minutes, so lets jot dis down real quick, but no matter how fast we’re about to go thru, I got ur back, I GOT ur back ;-)

Its been quite sumtime eh, well, in few minutes the Champions League is about to start, it’s the match of Arsenal, against Barcelona, at the Camp Nou, well, I cud only hope fate had a better plan for the Gunners and miracle wont turn its back to this wonderful team, haha

So, before I proceed any further, I’d like for once to talk about my field, yeah the aircraft. Well, one of the basic questions an examiner wud ask during the oral exam at DCA (Department of Civil Aviation) is ‘How aircraft fly?’ well, its really very basic, so basic that even kindergarteners cud answer, but due to the complexity of how human think nowadays, not to mention that the brain capacity is so powerful that by using up to the extent of 10% of its capability, most examinee wud fail bcos their head cant decipher the most basic, simplest form of question.
How does it fly actually? Well, ive no intention of talking about aircraft rite now, only to make it a symbolic icon of what we wud represent in this context. Well, u see, in life, the higher we go up, the harder we fall, and the harder we fall, the pain wud be more unbearable, so unbearable that we cud never forget that agonizing pain thus leaving a deep, very deep scar of stigma as a proof of our dark, bloody past experience that we begged to the God everyday never ever had to relive such experience again, but only with lotsa prayers and unknown huge amount of time could make the swell of such pain subside.

And in order to prevent the unbearable pain from falling hard on the harsh ground of reality, we, tried to defy the gravity of life and time, and put on lotsa effort, and adapt lots of non-logical methods that we considered logical at that time, but deep down inside we know its insane, and stupid, and as we shift from methods to methods, we realize, that despite no matter how had u tried, u are still falling down and it’s unavoidable , and what varies between individuals are usually how long the process it takes and what method that they used to make sure they land safely back on reality with the slightest damage, scar or hurt, thus makes the recovery process one of the most unexpected variables in life.

So, my main question is what propels us to this very great height that often endangers us and led to a hard, unbearable pain of falling? What is the force? What is the equation? And why? Well, the answer to all these metaphorical physics’ questions is LOVE. Okay, for once, lets toss all those Newton’s, or Bernoulli principles outta window. Haha, as silly as it sounds, love indeed is the greatest motivator, the greatest force, and due to this undefined, unexplained force that cant be derived in mathematical equations, LOVE itself had defy the laws, the norms of nature, yes, we cud defy gravity with love, we cud push ourselves even further that no amount of petrol can supply for the aircraft to go, it can also ignite even uncountable quantity fuel of passion that continue to burn for eternity or as long as the love remains, and not only that, it can also act as aerofoil on the wing that uplifts the spirit and makes us believe that we can overcome impossibilities by overcoming all those unwanted obstacles on this harsh, hard, dark pavement of runway we called reality.

So, my friends, despite no matter how high u fly and end up slamming the face of the earth, lets not forget all the adrenaline rush, the anxiety, and the passion that helps us flying back, soaring like a free bird in the sky, let it be the motivator to stand up again, and start things back from scratch. The Wright brothers had done it, we cud do it too, so don’t give up, rise and continue rising like the never ending sun, never give up.

Thank you guys for u just helped me pushed myself further, I can feel the sky is no longer my limit, if anything is keeping me apart from the wonders of the heaven on the other side of the sky, well, bring it on!! Well, gudluck guys, I wish u all the best in life, and may we all meet back together up there in our greatest form, like I had always had wished ;-)

12 comments:

  1. love is fine. but really gets you no where here in life.the only love is that from your mother and father. every other love is false.

    maybe you have parents, you are optimistic. but the moment the parents are removed from the equation, friends, lovers, relatives are no more yours. everything they said was a lie. Never believe a friend when he or she says: i will be there for you when you need me. he or she only says it because he or she wants to hear the story and thats it. and when in fact you are not doing fine, he or she is no where to be found.the love is no where to be found, because it did not exist. the only pure love is that of your parents.

    i hope you can remain happy.

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  2. i cud only deduce that u love ur parents so much, well, dats gud. yeah, i luv my mum, she is the only woman i can talk to, tho sumtimes she can be very not understanding, but, yeah, parents love us and the reasons for their actions are bcos they loved and thik wats best for us. tho im optimistic, i often feeling down and inferior, thus im glad im exuded with dis feeling, u see, everytime im feeling low, i read any piece dat i've written, and thank god im back on my feet again

    and i stil believe in true love, and true friendship too, thanks a lot for reading this, may i know who u are? i dont think love is an equation, i think its more of an answer, haha.

    i wish u happy too ;-)

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  3. you believe in friendship and true love now because you have stability in life in general.
    true love and friendship is just a figment of the imagination. you will know when you desperately need help. and i mean in desperation. they are not to be found anywhere.
    love is neither an answer or an equation. just what we delude ourselves in thinking is real.
    im no one in particular.i've only ever known parental love.

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  4. me? stability in life? haha, dats hillarious dude, but thanks. hmm, frankly, i dunno know what it feels like to have true 'frenship' or 'love', nor i know what i have to do in ordr to attain these valuable values, plus i dunno what is ur definition of frenship, or love, but i know one thing; i dont want any of my frens to be in trouble, if they do, ill try my best to help em out, i dunno if this is frenship, or love, maybe even worse im just all talk, whu knows eh? i also once felt having people playing on with my feelings, replying love and such but then again i learned she was just playing along with my feelings, then threw along sum harsh statements like im weird, have mental disorder(so u see why its funny when u said im stable?)i know it sucks, but i stil believe in em, u cant see these things, but its sumwhere out there, u just have to believe. just bcos it doesnt show up in ur time of need, dosnt mean such values doesnt exist. it may be sum sort of propaganda, or enriched imagination and film directors may had took extra effort to beautify and glorify these traits to keep the food on the table, but deep down, i believe that we can love and have true frens. even if the girl now end up with sumone else, even she may say more harsh words or had to go for a very far, far place, even no matter how much i miseed her, i cud only wish her the happiness in life and hoped never once shell feel what i felt. sumtimes, the reason u didnt find it anywhere else is because its there, right in you in the first place, maybe u just to busy searching that u forget that u, urself have the capacity to love people, unconditionally, and there will people come out to reach to ur positive, wonderful thoughts, dont worry.

    haha, seriously i often feel inferior, and gloomy, but now maybe im just too damn optimistic. wow, its so long eh? nvrmind, thanks a lot for reading, i hope ull find dis things in life. just pray to god and He'll hear u out.

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  5. definition of friendship: loyalty, trust, where you dont fear the nay and nor with hold the yes... and to be there for you in need of help (the last one is most important...because everyone can be there for you when you are ok...)
    nope. i still think you have stability. you see, you still have freinds and family and a home. its still beautiful for you.
    For me...as long as i am mentally and physically sane i can survive. i think that should suffice for a while. but i think these kind of things are quite draining after a while. but we still go on as suicide is haram and not a solution. but i wonder what really is?
    no..long is ok...i feel better after reading some of your extracts. sort of like there is still some human left in me...
    have a nice day

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  6. hmm...i sort of wish i could delete the above statement.
    it sounds so emo.

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  7. haha, no worries, u can be all emo if u want, plus im a big fan of MCR, but ive gotta admit, its kinda exaggerating indeed, im certain, for u to be able to give out such statements shows that u are human enuf, and u acknowledge parental love, but even its not all lovey like frenships and true love, but that its just one of the first steps, congratulations my fren, for u aint longer a robot ;-)

    hmm, u wonder what really is haram? well, suicide is definitely is one of em, and please stay away from dat path i beg u, tho im not religious, but im well aware enuf of such thing. its such a waste, and ur parents love will be wasted, non?

    em, u see, i dont really see myself as a stable person, most of the times i cant really act well, but then again, there are lotsa things i wanna achieve, and i know by quitting, i aint achieve it, and people will only end up laughing, and it will only sadden my fellow frens and mostly my mom, so please dont give up? i dunno whu u are, or what uve gone thru, nor ive the right to give u advice since im still a loser myself, but, i wud really glad to have a fren to fight along, and by just reading ur comments, i know that im not useless, i can stil contribute and at least there's people who were affected by such long, perplexing reading materials. thanks a lot for ur feed back, im really happy with it, thank you. my teacher once told me dis, even the hardest of men respond to love, and im sure one day when the time comes, and u'll meet the one, u'll glad dat u're ALIVE:-)

    do u want me to delete the comment? ill do so if u want to. let dis be ur starting point to better future, a better life with all the love from family and friends

    with God's grace, i wish u'll be able to embrace and explore this complex, fragile yet simple thing called love :-)

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  8. my parents love i once had i dont really have anymore. i guess you can say i am alone.everything thing i thought was real is not real. i thought believing in simple but strong emotions would be enough. but they werent. but we just carry on living.and who knows. just maybe... im prepared for the worst to come..i dont even dare hope lest i am dissapointed again.
    thanks for your kind words
    xx

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  9. i have to agree to anonymous to certain point..people get h0oked up with the idea of love being swept of ones feet as if its happily ever after but reality is n0t always a bed of roses.In times of need is when a fren,lover being put 2da test and if they r worthy they'll stick.I believe dat love among human per se is when there is no conditional love.exist in parental love, even spouses, if lucky frens and some even g0 as far as to fellow humans.There are family who practice conditional love and that is n0t love in its true context. i think to reconcile the extreme idea of floating in mid air and having no love to anyone except parents is by n0t loving someone too much and remember that we do n0t belong 2 anyone n0r we own anyone,He created us and to Him we shall go.Only His love is eternal,so when we face death or betrayal its easier to digest as there is always Someone we can rely on and that is God.

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  10. emm, sorry. i...i just dont know what to say. being alone must be hard eh, and now when i think from ur perspective, it must be really hard. i can understand about wat uve said, and why u said em.

    but people are not alone, they have two things they can believe in, first God, like bubbles had mentioned, and second, themselves. It's gud u are prepared, but i hope u wont take any drastic measurements to overcome it. It may seem easy for me to talk it out to u when i, myself dont have the slightest idea of what ure going thru, but i cud only answer dis from my point of view and give out opinions.

    before we'll be able to find friends, we must be able to open up to people, and this is gud, u're opening up to me, u just have to get used to open up to all people, and im sure along the way, u'll be able to find one of those rare, hidden, sunken treasure deep beneath the sea of human called love and friendship, and u'll know what to do with it.

    please keep on going, and try harder, u are not alone :-)

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  11. im not sure. i'll just have to wait and see..with time..

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  12. i hope things will turn out just fine for you :-)

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