Wake Me Up When Ramadhan Comes Again...Apa? Dah Ramadhan!? Yey!

Assalamualaikum kids, em, how's life? How's fasting? Did i put up the rm1 as the reward for you guys who successfully able to fast per day? did you guys sumhow curi-curi makan along the way to school? Haha. i guess for time being im out of words. I always did, kan? :-)

Yeah, it's Ramadhan again. Life's pretty much back to basics again. Ramadhan, in the recent years had been a nostalgic month, a specific timeline of my life, a special one indeed, even there's much restriction during days, but there's much more we can achieve, as a muslim dat is. And why it had been a nostalgic one, i prefer to keep it to myself.

So, one of the common events dat we have in Ramadhan, apart from the mercun, semayang terawih, and not to mention there's no football in the evening at padang f, there's this one thing dat had become the highlight of Ramadhan and kids, dat is the bazaar in the evening.

Okay, this year, I am not much occupied last few years back, so on the 1s tday of Ramadhan, i managed to snuck out early from training and came to see what's the commotion all about; the ruckus; did the bazaar do live up its name which it deed in terms of price indeed, dan one of the things dat intrigues me is dat why the heck there are so many people open up stalls in taman melawati? you can see people setting up booths, erecting camps on the road curb, and not to mention that despite the traffic congestion caused by their stalls still attracts lots of customers; oh it's sumthing i'd call the wonders of Ramadhan, i guess.

So, you see, on the 1st day I went and 'dive' into the huge tides of people at the bazaar, i called my mom.

"mak, nak apa?"
"beli la seri muka, samosa ke, abang ko nak karipap"
"okay, nanti adik beli"

okay, karipap, seri muka, samosa...gotcha! and i make my way into the crowd. it was hard, as i pave my way from rows to rows, finding the right stall, not to mention i dont know how seri muka looks like, and the process didnt come easy, because there are so much people. and there are times i was stalled in one of the rows for like 3-5 minutes, kalah trafik jam mrr2, haha. Not to mention there are people who stand in the middle of the way, sum trying to go against the flow, sum are sweaty, sum are well...odoury, haha, and there's people begging for money, usually with a kid on her lap, which is sad sight, yet not healthy for the kid itself. I guess, this is part of life...wait, it is part of life!

I realize too, my life right now is pretty much the same with my 1st day in the bazaar ramadhan. Still clueless, still searching, wondering, and grasping for air, light, and direction of the glimpse of the divine, much higher power direction.

I dont know how it will turn up soon, but, I never feel like taking this fight off in the quest of a better life, a better way of dealing with people and my innerself, nevertheless, I do enjoy this never-tiring, never-ending process, may I find solace at the end of this looong, winding yet straight road, and with the huge love that I hardly show to you guys in the depth of my shallow heart, I will always love you, like I always had :-)

Rezeki Datang Sekali Sekala, Syukur Kena Selalu

Assalamualaikum Hanafiah? How’s life? Haha, cool eh, you’re getting older, wiser, and you’ve began to embrace and appreciate life from lotsa aspects. Yeah, it’s important too that as we get older that we should not forget to cherish the child in ourselves. Still unemployed eh? Nevermind, good things will come, good things will come, insyaAllah.

Hmm, I think its been quite sumtime that ive always told about the miseries that ive been thru, well I guess its time to turn over a new leaf and let bygones be bygones. Plus I aint sum emo kid, so enuf with those heart throbbing, mind blowing posts (haha, perasan sejenak). Neway kids, Im 24 now, its so freaking cool cos…well, I just think its great for a person to grow old and die, mengucapkan 2 kalimah syahadah in the arms of their beloved, and letting their offspring, their kids to do the last task, the last order a parent would’ve wanted from their beloved children, which is to bathe them properly, respectfully, and most important to be really careful as their parents, like their hearts too, even can be seen from the naked eye, the most fragile thing, thus handle it with care as they the most valuable thing in the world. 

Frankly speaking, I was never a good child. There are times I let my emotions to sway my sanity, and let anger take control, often I let ur grandma down, often I took ur grandpa for granted, no matter how many negativity I had done, or how many mistakes, I just pray that I will never do hat again, and if I will, I pray to be given the chance to beg for forgiveness. I realize, there are lots of things I need to improve, but starting aint easy, but I would like to give it my best shot.

I’ve few things that im planning, and suddenly I felt there’re just too many routes for me to run, the ocean is so big and the wind is blowing in so many directions, the sky is so vast that I can fly towards any direction too; and I hope no matter which path I take, wherever my leg is taking me, or which direction im going, I pray that I’ll end up in some good, blessed place surrounded with great people, great friends, and respectable rivals.

Im glad I took this training, I learned lotsa new things, I learn to troubleshoot and create few things, I began to appreciate knowledge more, and im surrounded by people who are thirst for knowledge, surrounded by people with the same great desire as mine; which is to improve themselves and find a stepping stone into the career they wanted. It’s not easy, we may not be lucky enuf to be employed, but to be united in such fateful event, I cant be more thankful :-)

Rezeki datang sekali sekala, tapi syukur kena selalu. 

Hanafiah, selamat harijadi, semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki selalu. It’s time we buckle up, shift the gear, speed up, run like the wind, and face new challenges in life! Kalau kau lari, aku lari jua. I love you like I always had.